An Emo Post.

WARNING!IF YOU HATE LONG EMO RANTS,GET LOST.Sorry,I'm cranky.



Yes,this is a rare sight.In fact,it's rare to see me upset for so long.I heard that posting comforts the soul.It's like opening up.Well,I hope it works.I am crying as I am typing this.I wonder if there are names for emo people...emo junkie?

Anyway,back to the point.I shall express my feelings in hope that I shall feel better.Heck,if I do feel any better,I'll be damn happy.Being emo for like a month,yeah,you get contented very easily.

Today,if any of you saw me crying and I like told everyone ''My hamster died.'' and then I'll turn to Jarrod,''My hamster died,right???''.Jarrod will in turn say ''Yes,your hamster died.''He's like the best friend ever.Covering up for me and all.I wish he was a girl.We would make the best of friends.In fact,Jarrod just needs to be interested in clothes and I'll definitely make him become my girlfriend.

Well,guess what??My hamster DIDN'T die.Heck,I don't even have one to begin with.I have a feeling everybody knew that already,though.

BUT.BUT.BUT.

To the form 3/4/5 people,I'm sure you saw nothing amiss.Happy,happy,hyper Hui Min.Jumping aound like normal.Yup,very normal but I bet you people haven't noticed the mask covering my face.Yup,I'm very good at hiding my feeling when times are dire.Maybe that's why I'm feeling so depressed.Cuz I find it so hard to open up....

I've been in this deep,dark hole for a month now.I fell into it.I've never been here before.I see the light from above.I try to reach it but to no avail.I keep trying but I keep slipping back down again.It's very fustrating.It's dark and lonely down here.I've been crying day after day but no one can hear me.I want to go up.I want to see the light again.Just seeing it gives me hope.Hope that there'll be another tomorrow.I keep hoping because you never know what'll happen tomorrow.Maybe fate will take a turn.Maybe life will be easier tomorrow.

Again I wish I can go up to see the light.I need help.I need my friends.I have my friends.An Indian,three Chinese boys and a Chinese girl.They've all tried to pull me up before.The Chinese boy was the first.He understands how I feel.He's been in and out of the hole too.He said,''Don't cry.I'll be there for you.''I said the same thing back to him.He gave me his hand and tried to get me out of the hole.Then,three wolves came beside him.They were his friends but they would eat me.We went our seperate ways for both our sakes.

The second was an Indian boy.He was my best friend.We always looked out for each other and we've gone through thick and thin.He's always been there for me no matter what.He too reached out for me.He tried with all his might.He couldn't pull me up.He was too weak.He had already used up his energy on his other friends.Until now,he has still been holding my hand,trying to get me out of there.

The third was a Chinese girl,my cousin.We've known each other for more than a decade.We understand each other more than anyone else in the world does.She brought a rope with her in hope that she will fair better than the other two.She threw down the rope.I caught it.She pulled me up.I could see the light.It was getting brighter.I was in there for two weeks.Seeig the light,it made me happy again.I thought I had lost that feeling.Having felt it again,there are no words that can describe my feelings.But then,I saw her face.She was struggling to pull me out.She found it the most strainous to pull me up out of the three.How could I be so selfish to someone who cares for me so much?I told her,''I'm going to let go.I cannot depend on you alone.It is unfair to you.''

I do not regret letting go of the rope.In my heart, I feel happy and sad at the same time.Happy that released the burden she was holding on to.I have eased her pain now.And sad that I have fell into the hole again.I am alone again in the deep dark hole. The light is fading away...I hope someone will pull me out of here soon.It is lonely in here....

I shall rehat in the library tomorrow.I'm that pathetic and it'll be much easier.I don't want to burden my friends.

I dunno whats it called.Glossary?Index?

hole-The hole is depression to me.So yeah,falling back into the hole is falling back into depression.

the light-I imagine,up there,people playing around and having fun with their friends.Yes,that's what I want.

P.S-Oh yeah,mymun part 2 will be up tmr.I'd rather do this emo post.Wow,this has helped me.