*sigh*

Again,*sigh*

Wonder why I've been so down these days.I hate it when I'm not happy.I sub-consciously avoid people and talking to them.Sucks.Few reasons why I'm not happy-

1.Social-deprivation.When I don't talk to people enough,my mind goes into total lock down.I 'forget' how to talk.I hate that cuz it takes time for me to become normal again.

2.Holiday.Always hated them.Not enough social activity.Nevermind shopping,I just want to play like with my friends or something.Year-end holidays are the worst.Everyone's busy.

3.Overshadow.I think I did something I shouldn't have done.

4.I'm going back to school tomorrow.I should be rejoicing.At least,I normally do...It's different this time.I'm somewhat afraid.Afraid of patching up with people,getting used to them again.Social life has been pretty absent for the past 2 weeks.Getting it back again will be proven tough and I'd rather run away from it...not go to school.My God,I can't believe I'm saying I don't want to go to school.That's a first.

5.I've been having second thoughts on closing down my blog.The blog is like a digital diary as I've heard from somewhere.A diary is a place where you jot down about your days and all the sappy puppylove stuff for most.Just feels good knowing you're only writing for yourself,doesn't it?But,right now as we speak,the blog isn't just a digital diary,it's also a place where we entertain people by posting about the latest happenings and all that shits.Blogs aren't very personal nowadays,are they?Blogs are more like places where we write just to entertain others.That's extra work.I hate extra work and the self-imaginated pressure of having to constantly post to to keep my readers coming.Yup,blogging has its cons and that sucks.

6.I have so many good ideas of what to post about but I just don't feel like blogging anymore.My friends ask me what to post about cuz the run out of ideas and I find it unfair that I'm never running out of ideas and yet I still don't blog.That really sucks.


Hhhhmmm...I think upset people learn to hate everything relatively easily when they're not happy.This sucks,that sucks.Whoopeedoo.


I think I'll be blogging soon about my results but that's boring for my readers.Again the self-imaginated pressure to entertain my readers with some interesting shit.Bogalay.

Anyhoo,I'm not in a very happy mood right now so toodles isn't very suitable.I shall keep it simple and sweet.

Bye.